I was working as a home framer for a little ‘mom and pop’ construction company in Blenheim, ON to save up for my second year of university. The difference was, this summer I was moving to Lakeland Florida where the sun never leaves your side, and you could literally smell coconut oil just about everywhere. I know, that’s a bit dramatic, but I was on cloud 9 at the thought of living in the sunny south and pursuing my passion.
Once I moved down there and got all my things unpacked, I quickly felt loss in the pit of my stomach. Why would I feel this way? I had a huge opportunity right before me and there was an excitement all around the campus. What did this mean? Is this what “home sick” feels like?
I wrestled with God about this in prayer. He had removed me from all that I knew besides breathing air, and eating 3 times a day. My family wasn’t close, and I didn’t have a phone or a vehicle. My 5 best buddies that I grew up with weren’t around to chew the fat and we certainly didn’t have Facebook or Hockey Night In Canada. This might sound shallow, but as a young man on my own, it’s all I felt I had.
It wasn’t until all of those great connections, and luxuries were removed that I realized it was God and I!
I had to find myself in Christ. I grew up in a Christian home and my parents were awesome to feed me spiritually and raise me in environments of worship and the church. I needed to find this personal relationship with God for myself in a new way. Little did I know it required the removal of everything I knew for that to happen. To find my first love in Christ meant removing what was familiar, expected and common in my everyday life.
God revealed Himself to me and I am so grateful for those days even though it hurt for a while. He also showed me who I am in Him and it gave me more purpose than I had ever felt. The picture became clearer and my relationship with Him deepened from that day on.
In our time of “removal” during the fast, be reminded today that God is going to do something great in your life that might not have happened, had we not set aside the pattern that we often trek through life in. God is doing a new thing today and He will fill the void with spiritual food!
God, give us the ability today to be aware of your voice, Your calling and Your desire in my life!
- Romans 12:2
- Colossians 3:1-3
- 2 Corinthians 5:17
- Galatians 2:20